Today has been, so far, maybe the best day of this year. Maybe I'm overcompensating because I was so recently broken up with and, of course, I had plenty of great times with him this year before that happened. But I have always felt that the happiness experienced in solitude has a magic to it … Continue reading ✨ The Magic Of Solitude ✨
What I say: I love and accept myself exactly as I am I approve of myself My heart has boundless strength I am brave to love It is safe to be vulnerable What I do: Cry. Howl. Wail (currently trying not to though as I'm in a coffee shop). Write songs (allowing crying breaks, of … Continue reading Breakups + Self-Care 💔
Patterns often repeat themselves within families. Genetics is commonly used as an explanation for this. Addictive personalities, disposition to depression and anxiety, abusive relationships maybe. I'm becoming more and more sceptical of genetics being used as scapegoat for unhealthy patterns and more open to the idea that the "monkey see, monkey do" nature of children … Continue reading Inheriting A Lack Mentality
I'm no stranger to being angry or overwhelmed. These days I'm reasonably good at hiding my anger, so people are usually quite surprised when I tell them I have a temper. But it's there! It kinda runs on both sides of the family - my Mam and Dad can both be pretty irritable - and … Continue reading How To Deal With Anger + Overwhelm
I don't know if it's just in Edinburgh where it's advertised but there's ads on the side of buses sometimes that say "try praying". The last time I saw one of these ads I internally rolled my eyes. To me, praying has always been synonymous with Christianity or organised religion in general. I also thought … Continue reading Praying, Faith + A Course In Miracles
This New Year is one like no other for me; I can not recall ever feeling so alien at the beginning of a year. I can not recall ever not wanting to join in with the tradition of setting resolutions and having the ability to let hope fill my heart. I hope that this is … Continue reading A Tentative Dip Into A New Year
I've found myself at a lot of dead ends lately. I can't believe I've not been making music. I've been promoting an EP that I've barely started. To be fair, I have written around 5 songs and recorded one but I'm so disappointed in myself. I'll be 24 next year. Want to know something crazy? … Continue reading Dead Ends
****trigger warning: suicide**** I don't know how to write about this without seeming really selfish and I'm not trying to invite people to worry sick about me; but it really has been my reality lately that I've been tempted to look death in the face. Maybe this is a healing opportunity for me. … Continue reading Siddhartha’s River
I've come across countless people who lament and long for the past, for a simpler time without sadness and worries. Maybe it's because I'm 23 and I don't feel "old" yet (although sometimes I do!) but I find it difficult to relate to this. Maybe it's because I've spent time weeding out the realities of … Continue reading “The Good Old Days” – Idealisation Of Childhood + Psychological Regression
At work in the pharmacy yesterday, the pharmacist and I were discussing substance misuse and its tragic detriments on people affected by it. "It's not a life you'd choose," she said. And rightfully so. This is always my stance on the subject. And not just in the context of substance misuse but any lifestyle choice that … Continue reading Treatment Resistance: The Biggest Heartbreak
