I'm no stranger to being angry or overwhelmed. These days I'm reasonably good at hiding my anger, so people are usually quite surprised when I tell them I have a temper. But it's there! It kinda runs on both sides of the family - my Mam and Dad can both be pretty irritable - and … Continue reading How To Deal With Anger + Overwhelm
I don't know if it's just in Edinburgh where it's advertised but there's ads on the side of buses sometimes that say "try praying". The last time I saw one of these ads I internally rolled my eyes. To me, praying has always been synonymous with Christianity or organised religion in general. I also thought … Continue reading Praying, Faith + A Course In Miracles
This New Year is one like no other for me; I can not recall ever feeling so alien at the beginning of a year. I can not recall ever not wanting to join in with the tradition of setting resolutions and having the ability to let hope fill my heart. I hope that this is … Continue reading A Tentative Dip Into A New Year
I've found myself at a lot of dead ends lately. I can't believe I've not been making music. I've been promoting an EP that I've barely started. To be fair, I have written around 5 songs and recorded one but I'm so disappointed in myself. I'll be 24 next year. Want to know something crazy? … Continue reading Dead Ends
****trigger warning: suicide**** I don't know how to write about this without seeming really selfish and I'm not trying to invite people to worry sick about me; but it really has been my reality lately that I've been tempted to look death in the face. Maybe this is a healing opportunity for me. … Continue reading Siddhartha’s River
I've come across countless people who lament and long for the past, for a simpler time without sadness and worries. Maybe it's because I'm 23 and I don't feel "old" yet (although sometimes I do!) but I find it difficult to relate to this. Maybe it's because I've spent time weeding out the realities of … Continue reading “The Good Old Days” – Idealisation Of Childhood + Psychological Regression
At work in the pharmacy yesterday, the pharmacist and I were discussing substance misuse and its tragic detriments on people affected by it. "It's not a life you'd choose," she said. And rightfully so. This is always my stance on the subject. And not just in the context of substance misuse but any lifestyle choice that … Continue reading Treatment Resistance: The Biggest Heartbreak
I cannot take the things my parents say at face value. I have to internally evaluate their mood, their mental position and try to uncover the intent. Otherwise, these interactions have the potential to be very damaging to me. My Mam texted me something yesterday that ignited a rage in me. Lately, she has been … Continue reading Mental Instability In Others + The Importance Of An Open Mind
My life lately has been defined by reassessing a lot of the things I thought I knew and the beliefs I thought I had. I've been saying yes to more things and liking things I didn't think I would. I feel like I'm looking back on beliefs and practices I used to cling to strongly … Continue reading Self Permission – Setting Intentions
"Disordered eating refers to a wide range of abnormal eating behaviours, many of which are shared with diagnosed eating disorders. The main thing differentiating disordered eating from an eating disorder is the level of severity and frequency of behaviours." - Eating Disorders Victoria I was one of those kids that was extremely fussy when it came … Continue reading My Experiences With Disordered Eating
