****trigger warning: suicide**** I don't know how to write about this without seeming really selfish and I'm not trying to invite people to worry sick about me; but it really has been my reality lately that I've been tempted to look death in the face. Maybe this is a healing opportunity for me. … Continue reading Siddhartha’s River
Any time I've found myself in a truly toxic situation or dynamic, it hasn't been until after the fact that I've been able to acknowledge it. It's difficult to categorise someone's words or actions as abusive when you feel fondness towards them. When you love someone - romantically or otherwise - you feel as if … Continue reading “It’s Just A Joke” – The Many Faces Of Emotional Abuse
Depressed individuals tend to be more sensitive than the average person. We can feel disgruntled, victimised by our illness, alone and desperate for someone to understand. This can mean that when we see a representation of depression that does not resonate with us, we feel angry. "Great, another misconception - this is not what it's … Continue reading “Depression Isn’t Sadness, It’s Feeling Nothing At All” + Other Myths…
The last time I posted (which was a few weeks ago), I was feeling very motivated and I was exploring the idea of combating resistance and overcoming procrastination. I'm still feeling very excited about goals I want to achieve but I thought I'd be honest and reveal that I'm dealing with a bout of depression … Continue reading Life Update: A Chat About Depression + Chakras
I've come across countless people who lament and long for the past, for a simpler time without sadness and worries. Maybe it's because I'm 23 and I don't feel "old" yet (although sometimes I do!) but I find it difficult to relate to this. Maybe it's because I've spent time weeding out the realities of … Continue reading “The Good Old Days” – Idealisation Of Childhood + Psychological Regression
At work in the pharmacy yesterday, the pharmacist and I were discussing substance misuse and its tragic detriments on people affected by it. "It's not a life you'd choose," she said. And rightfully so. This is always my stance on the subject. And not just in the context of substance misuse but any lifestyle choice that … Continue reading Treatment Resistance: The Biggest Heartbreak
"There are many ways to obtain altered states of mind. These special states are addictive. It feels so good to break free from our mundane experience. We want more. For example, new meditators often expect that with training they can transcend the pain of ordinary life. It's disappointing, to say the least, to be told … Continue reading Peak Experiences: You Might Feel Good After You Meditate – That’s Not The Point
I think it's important to treat yourself kindly; to speak nicely to yourself, to be loving. One thing I noticed when I practiced a week of self parenting is that when I refrained from speaking negatively and critically to myself, I felt less compelled to be so judgemental with others. This knock-on effect blossomed like a … Continue reading Thoughts On… Healing As An Obstacle To Success + Fulfilment
I've spent a lot of time trying to heal. Where some suppress their demons and walk about with a sense of unease, I have stripped them bare; to my counsellors, to my friends - to myself. But I have been carrying around with me a sense of unease about something else - my creativity; in … Continue reading A Return To Writing + Thoughts On… Resistance + Creativity
I've found there to be a lot of conflicting ideas in the spiritual community when it comes to loneliness and connection. One one hand, loneliness is perceived as being integral to the human condition, with the general advice being that if we feel lonely, what we really need is to be spending more time with ourselves. … Continue reading Thoughts On… Loneliness vs. Connection
