This New Year is one like no other for me; I can not recall ever feeling so alien at the beginning of a year. I can not recall ever not wanting to join in with the tradition of setting resolutions and having the ability to let hope fill my heart. I hope that this is … Continue reading A Tentative Dip Into A New Year
I've found myself at a lot of dead ends lately. I can't believe I've not been making music. I've been promoting an EP that I've barely started. To be fair, I have written around 5 songs and recorded one but I'm so disappointed in myself. I'll be 24 next year. Want to know something crazy? … Continue reading Dead Ends
****trigger warning: suicide**** I don't know how to write about this without seeming really selfish and I'm not trying to invite people to worry sick about me; but it really has been my reality lately that I've been tempted to look death in the face. Maybe this is a healing opportunity for me. … Continue reading Siddhartha’s River
Any time I've found myself in a truly toxic situation or dynamic, it hasn't been until after the fact that I've been able to acknowledge it. It's difficult to categorise someone's words or actions as abusive when you feel fondness towards them. When you love someone - romantically or otherwise - you feel as if … Continue reading “It’s Just A Joke” – The Many Faces Of Emotional Abuse
Depressed individuals tend to be more sensitive than the average person. We can feel disgruntled, victimised by our illness, alone and desperate for someone to understand. This can mean that when we see a representation of depression that does not resonate with us, we feel angry. "Great, another misconception - this is not what it's … Continue reading “Depression Isn’t Sadness, It’s Feeling Nothing At All” + Other Myths…
The last time I posted (which was a few weeks ago), I was feeling very motivated and I was exploring the idea of combating resistance and overcoming procrastination. I'm still feeling very excited about goals I want to achieve but I thought I'd be honest and reveal that I'm dealing with a bout of depression … Continue reading Life Update: A Chat About Depression + Chakras
I've come across countless people who lament and long for the past, for a simpler time without sadness and worries. Maybe it's because I'm 23 and I don't feel "old" yet (although sometimes I do!) but I find it difficult to relate to this. Maybe it's because I've spent time weeding out the realities of … Continue reading “The Good Old Days” – Idealisation Of Childhood + Psychological Regression
At work in the pharmacy yesterday, the pharmacist and I were discussing substance misuse and its tragic detriments on people affected by it. "It's not a life you'd choose," she said. And rightfully so. This is always my stance on the subject. And not just in the context of substance misuse but any lifestyle choice that … Continue reading Treatment Resistance: The Biggest Heartbreak
"There are many ways to obtain altered states of mind. These special states are addictive. It feels so good to break free from our mundane experience. We want more. For example, new meditators often expect that with training they can transcend the pain of ordinary life. It's disappointing, to say the least, to be told … Continue reading Peak Experiences: You Might Feel Good After You Meditate – That’s Not The Point
I think it's important to treat yourself kindly; to speak nicely to yourself, to be loving. One thing I noticed when I practiced a week of self parenting is that when I refrained from speaking negatively and critically to myself, I felt less compelled to be so judgemental with others. This knock-on effect blossomed like a … Continue reading Thoughts On… Healing As An Obstacle To Success + Fulfilment
