This post is for anyone who feels somewhat at a loss within the festive period. For the past few years, I've approached the festive period with a low-level anxiety and existential dread: "What should I be doing? The thing it is that I'm supposed to be doing simply doesn't feel like an option for me. What … Continue reading Festive Dread
Yeah, this is definitely not the first time I've written about this but you know what - a bitch got stuff to say so I'm exploring it again. Codependency has been playing on my mind the past few weeks partly because of the kind of content I've been consuming lately. I've recently had a brilliant … Continue reading More Thoughts On… Boundaries + Codependency
Part of what drives my passion for blogging (and songwriting, actually) is a striving towards vulnerability. This is because so much of what is prevalent in the media at the moment is contrived and emotionless. And I would like to see more people taking an openhearted and radically honest approach to content creation and self-expression. … Continue reading Thoughts On… Social Media + What I Don’t Like About Blogging
...is that it implies there is something "wrong" with you in the first place. I've had a shift in perspective recently when it comes to self help, mental illness and shadow work. It's not something that always made sense to me, that truly bringing about positive change starts with radical acceptance of where we are … Continue reading The Problem With “Getting Better”…
I was going to publish a post today that I wrote earlier about the concept of "getting better" and how that can be problematic in itself; but it doesn't feel true to how I feel right now. I don't feel like I have any supposed "truth bombs" I can drop and feel self-satisfied about right … Continue reading Thoughts On…The First Week Without Therapy
I'm not going to have everything wrapped up with a neat little bow for you. Because first of all, I don't even know what to say. You're able to articulate everything you're feeling and bring it into the room. I smile to acknowledge your experience, then go through my routine of looking at the cracks … Continue reading Another Ending
I watched a brilliant film last night called "Call Me By Your Name" about a seventeen-year-old boy and a man in his twenties who fall in love over the course of a summer. It's one of the most beautiful love stories I've ever seen. It captures the headiness, the intoxication, the tenderness, the pain, the … Continue reading A Dreamless Codeine Sleep
For a few weeks, I've been mulling over which Buddhist figure should be the centrepiece of my shrine. I initially thought of Green Tara - the Buddha of compassion - who has been a familiar figure for me my whole life. Growing up, my Dad had a small Green Tara tapestry hanging in our home, … Continue reading Embracing Darkness With The Buddha Of The North
It's been roughly a year since my last episode of depression began. That might seem like a sign that it was seasonal-affective induced. However, more than any other time of year, I typically associate late spring with being the time that I typically start to experience depression; so I think that the arrival of winter … Continue reading “To Descend Is Also God’s Will” – Radical Acceptance, Depression + A Poem
I don't really know what to write about today specifically, so I suppose I'll just write about how I feel and what's on my mind. After last week's outburst post, I knew that my next counselling session would feel different. I told him today that it felt like a month since our last session. He … Continue reading Counselling, Validation + Childhood Fantasy
