Since my last blog post, I've been on a week-long Buddhist retreat and celebrated my 24th birthday. I'll insert a passage from my journal reflecting on turning 24: "That's a great age," women in their 30's tell me; but in a way, I feel more pressure upon hearing that. I receive it to mean that … Continue reading Healing Addiction Via Buddhism + A Happy Birthday
The importance of not coming off "desperate" or "clingy" cannot be overstated, it would seem, when it comes to dating. And for good reason. It can be off-putting, alarming even, for someone to respond instantaneously to every message you send them and to be perpetually agreeable and pliable. Also, venting your off-base frustrations with them … Continue reading Thoughts On…Dating Apps + A Poem
Being in a relationship is something of a security blanket for many people. Like an "at least I'm not alone" sort of thing. The presence of a significant other can absolutely add value to our lives and provide a form of support through adversity; but it's simply irrational to regard anyone in a relationship as … Continue reading “Why Are You Single?”: The Bizarre Idealisation of Relationships
So this has been the main complex rearing its head for me over the past few weeks. Something happens, I experience emotional overwhelm and when I drill right down into it - I feel unwanted. Disposed of. Refused. Rejected. It doesn't matter if it's to do with the timeframe in which someone has or hasn't … Continue reading On Feeling Unwanted
Today I sat down to write and Starbucks' irritating and contrived folk music drained my inspiration so I put in my headphones, played some Travis Scott and decided to do this tag! Meditative Owl is who I saw doing it first and I thought it'd be fun! So here goes: 1. What is your usual Starbucks order? … Continue reading 73 Things About Me ✨
On Saturday evening, I finished work after a fairly busy day (it's always busier towards the end of the day, too, because of all the cleaning that needs done, so we typically end it feeling a bit frenzied) and felt somewhat at a loss. Mothers talk about "empty nest syndrome", when they are forced to … Continue reading Exaltation + Indifference: Both Are Okay
In my last post, I detailed a confusing encounter with a guy wherein I thought an uneven power dynamic was prevailing. However, as it turns out, he was just shy. And I realised that it was his initial uncaring demeanour that had attracted me in the first place. Regardless, he invited me to a party … Continue reading Meeting Beautiful People
An unexpected insight came up in a therapy session a few weeks back. I was talking about the attention that naturally comes with performing and showcasing my essence and vulnerability on a stage. People take notice, approach you to talk about your set - buy you a drink, even. Mostly guys. I said to my … Continue reading An Honest Talk About Attention + Validation
I had an exchange with a couple of people on an Instagram post the other day. The post was about controlling parents and it presented the idea that when we emotionally separate from controlling parents, their response can tell us whether they truly love us or if they just love the control they have over … Continue reading Thoughts On… Abuse + Free Will
I didn't realise I still carried so much pain with me around my experience of adolescence until a boy I used to see spoke about his. We were in his car, driving somewhere on a Sunday, I think, and a song came on his playlist that reminded him of being a teenager (see below). "I … Continue reading Mourning The Lack Of An Idyllic Adolescence
