For a few weeks, I've been mulling over which Buddhist figure should be the centrepiece of my shrine. I initially thought of Green Tara - the Buddha of compassion - who has been a familiar figure for me my whole life. Growing up, my Dad had a small Green Tara tapestry hanging in our home, … Continue reading Embracing Darkness With The Buddha Of The North
It's been roughly a year since my last episode of depression began. That might seem like a sign that it was seasonal-affective induced. However, more than any other time of year, I typically associate late spring with being the time that I typically start to experience depression; so I think that the arrival of winter … Continue reading “To Descend Is Also God’s Will” – Radical Acceptance, Depression + A Poem
This New Year is one like no other for me; I can not recall ever feeling so alien at the beginning of a year. I can not recall ever not wanting to join in with the tradition of setting resolutions and having the ability to let hope fill my heart. I hope that this is … Continue reading A Tentative Dip Into A New Year
****trigger warning: suicide**** I don't know how to write about this without seeming really selfish and I'm not trying to invite people to worry sick about me; but it really has been my reality lately that I've been tempted to look death in the face. Maybe this is a healing opportunity for me. … Continue reading Siddhartha’s River
Depressed individuals tend to be more sensitive than the average person. We can feel disgruntled, victimised by our illness, alone and desperate for someone to understand. This can mean that when we see a representation of depression that does not resonate with us, we feel angry. "Great, another misconception - this is not what it's … Continue reading “Depression Isn’t Sadness, It’s Feeling Nothing At All” + Other Myths…
The last time I posted (which was a few weeks ago), I was feeling very motivated and I was exploring the idea of combating resistance and overcoming procrastination. I'm still feeling very excited about goals I want to achieve but I thought I'd be honest and reveal that I'm dealing with a bout of depression … Continue reading Life Update: A Chat About Depression + Chakras
I've spent a lot of time trying to heal. Where some suppress their demons and walk about with a sense of unease, I have stripped them bare; to my counsellors, to my friends - to myself. But I have been carrying around with me a sense of unease about something else - my creativity; in … Continue reading A Return To Writing + Thoughts On… Resistance + Creativity
Last July, I started blogging about self-esteem growth. I was in a very dark place last summer. I had been working in a stressful environment for months and had been entertaining unhealthy friendships that toyed with my emotions and had me questioning my self worth. Then I was diagnosed with a chronic illness and out … Continue reading Thoughts On…A Year Of Self-Esteem Growth
I watched a video recently about Lil Xan, a rapper from California who has been very candid about his drug abuse. In the past, he was very reliant upon benzodiazepines and opioids but he is supposedly clean or becoming clean now - although this has been disputed by many. There was one part of the … Continue reading The Downside Of Medication As First Line Treatment For Anxiety + Depression
Today's post was supposed to be on self forgiveness but I got heavily inspired to write on this topic instead. I'm not making a post about alcohol to bash those who indulge in it. After all, in some ways I love alcohol. I love being tipsy, I love partying, I love dancing. I even love … Continue reading Why I Don’t (Usually) Drink Alcohol
