I don't really know what to write about today specifically, so I suppose I'll just write about how I feel and what's on my mind. After last week's outburst post, I knew that my next counselling session would feel different. I told him today that it felt like a month since our last session. He … Continue reading Counselling, Validation + Childhood Fantasy
Since my last blog post, I've been on a week-long Buddhist retreat and celebrated my 24th birthday. I'll insert a passage from my journal reflecting on turning 24: "That's a great age," women in their 30's tell me; but in a way, I feel more pressure upon hearing that. I receive it to mean that … Continue reading Healing Addiction Via Buddhism + A Happy Birthday
The importance of not coming off "desperate" or "clingy" cannot be overstated, it would seem, when it comes to dating. And for good reason. It can be off-putting, alarming even, for someone to respond instantaneously to every message you send them and to be perpetually agreeable and pliable. Also, venting your off-base frustrations with them … Continue reading Thoughts On…Dating Apps + A Poem
Being in a relationship is something of a security blanket for many people. Like an "at least I'm not alone" sort of thing. The presence of a significant other can absolutely add value to our lives and provide a form of support through adversity; but it's simply irrational to regard anyone in a relationship as … Continue reading “Why Are You Single?”: The Bizarre Idealisation of Relationships
So this has been the main complex rearing its head for me over the past few weeks. Something happens, I experience emotional overwhelm and when I drill right down into it - I feel unwanted. Disposed of. Refused. Rejected. It doesn't matter if it's to do with the timeframe in which someone has or hasn't … Continue reading On Feeling Unwanted
On Saturday evening, I finished work after a fairly busy day (it's always busier towards the end of the day, too, because of all the cleaning that needs done, so we typically end it feeling a bit frenzied) and felt somewhat at a loss. Mothers talk about "empty nest syndrome", when they are forced to … Continue reading Exaltation + Indifference: Both Are Okay
I had an exchange with a couple of people on an Instagram post the other day. The post was about controlling parents and it presented the idea that when we emotionally separate from controlling parents, their response can tell us whether they truly love us or if they just love the control they have over … Continue reading Thoughts On… Abuse + Free Will
Growing up alongside the internet has to be a very unique experience - one that is very far removed from the way my parents and others from their generation (born in the 50's and 60's) grew up. Having so much information at your immediate disposal is just the biggest luxury. But it can be a … Continue reading In Defence Of Letting Things Arise
In the past few years, in western society, I feel like we've seen a huge shift in consciousness take place surrounding health and wellness - more specifically with healthy eating. This is partly due to the luxury of the internet and having instant access to boundless information about nutrition, ethics etc. I myself follow a … Continue reading Why I Won’t Give Up Junk Food: Healthy Eating + Elitism
Patterns often repeat themselves within families. Genetics is commonly used as an explanation for this. Addictive personalities, disposition to depression and anxiety, abusive relationships maybe. I'm becoming more and more sceptical of genetics being used as scapegoat for unhealthy patterns and more open to the idea that the "monkey see, monkey do" nature of children … Continue reading Inheriting A Lack Mentality
